It’s been a minute since I wrote last on this blog. Back in 2017 I had dreams, big ones. I was going to write every single day and my writing would be evocative and people would flock to my blog daily to read my words. Flash forward to 2020, and here I am wondering what went awry. I could say it was time, after all I AM very busy. But that’s a cop-out and I realized it this morning while on my run.

I’m training for a 5K (yes, when you’ve lived your life as a couch potato, you have to train to run three point one miles) and while on my long run this morning (yes, when your potato life has left you remarkably out of shape, you do have long runs that aren’t yet three point one miles) I started thinking about why I left my writing behind. I think I figured it out. I was writing for the wrong reason. This type of writing isn’t for you-it’s for me. I had my audience all wrong. It’s kind of like this 5K I’m training for; I’m not doing it for anyone other than myself. When I was writing for others, I constantly worried about readers judging my syntax, my grammar, and my conventions. I was so worried and I quit.

But now I know better. This writing is for me. It’s to sort out the thoughts in my head, ruminate over the days’ outcomes, and just put on paper what’s on my mind. That’s it. So if you’re reading this, then welcome to my thinking.

9 thoughts on “Wrong Audience

  1. Yes! I absolutely agree with your sentiments here (even the part about needing a long run that is not yet 3.1 miles). This, especially, touched me: “It’s to sort out the thoughts in my head, ruminate over the days’ outcomes, and just put on paper what’s on my mind.” This is my third year doing the challenge and, while others read what I write, I have come to realize that I’m writing for me. Writing – even weekly – helps me sort things through, helps me slow things down, helps me remember to catch the details. I’m so glad that you are here & writing. I can’t wait to read more this month – Welcome!!

  2. So glad you’re here! The best thing about this community is joining other writers who are also doing this for themselves, but are happy to encourage you and support you in this journey! (By the way, I dream of also running a 5K someday, but it is super hard for me too, so I understand where you are as a runner!)

  3. Yessssss! This piece speaks to me so much. I’m always so worried about what everyone will think, but at the end of the day, my writing is about me. Me and what I have going on in my head, my life, and my heart. Its cathartic really- when you start writing about what is real to you and not what you think people want to read. Welcome back and I look forward to reading more of your slices!

  4. That’s why I originally started my blog–just for me to write. I let it go for a while, but am back and charged up, ready to go. I’m glad you are back to writing!

  5. I have paused my writing at times. But, like a loyal friend, it is always there. I’ve used personal writing to develop self-compassion — really just writing for me and it has been a great way to come back to the keyboard without the ambitions of audience and making a performance out of it. Best of luck to you in your projects!!

  6. Glad you are back to writing. And look at how your health choices have changed your outlook and perspective. You’re crushing this!

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